My introduction to the 12-step program came at the age of 19 when I first engaged with Narcotics Anonymous. Working through the initial step was a pivotal moment for me as it forced me to confront the harsh reality of my addiction and acknowledge the chaos that had overtaken my life. While I completed the step and understood the concept of powerlessness and unmanageability, I failed to fully grasp the depth of what it meant to be an addict.
Multiple rounds of the 12-step process and working with different sponsors eventually shed new light on my understanding of the first step. Each experience brought fresh insights and nuances that I hadn’t noticed before. It was through this continuous exploration and introspection that I began to truly comprehend the significance of admitting powerlessness over addiction and accepting the need for change.
I had a sponsor who directed my attention toward the Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions of Alcoholics Anonymous. When I read the chapter corresponding to step one, I discovered that, along with honesty, there is an acceptance piece surrounding the first step. As I let go of all my reservations regarding my addiction and committed to working a program of action, I found a sense of ultimate freedom. This acceptance of my condition and willingness to let go of control was a turning point in my recovery journey, leading me toward a path of healing and transformation.
By: Bryan Bierly
